resah genggam erat

the moon and star...they look so lovely each day in our life...
so spectacular, yet our life so miserable, i thought im tough enuff to stand and against the world....

as i fall, facing the dirt on the ground...
so fucking painful....a lot of hope and beliefs
as i regret the opportunity in my hand..i slide it away.

the moon and the star..gleaming thru my my eyes...
fascinating...so damn beautiful...some would pluck for lover.
i wonder, why?

as the dawn reincarnation from dusk, i stood still...redemptive wat hav loss, wat hav gain.
nothing so particular for me to sit and smile...i look upon the faded starlight before its goes out...i wanted to scream...but no one could hear...
the wearies smile of mine....force my eyes to cry...
deeply exhausted of all the conscience of wat i been choose...
i try to hold the precious little heart tat i hav...

hoping you here to hold me...till the end...

Esok

ku janji esok hari terakhir untuk bercinta dengan kamu,
hari ini yang terakhir untuk kamu bersama ku....sandarlah dibahuku,
aku janji esok hari aku akan lupakan dirimu terus,
melankolinya aku mahukan esok pagi masih lagi berada disebelah kamu,
ye, sayang ini telus-setelusnya.
tetapi bolekah hari ni kita berpura-pura umpama tiadanya esok.

ku janji ... bias mindaku untukmu akan ku padamkan.
aku janji tak akan lagi menunggu panggilan fon darimu,
kerna aku tidak mahu kisah lagi kias cerita kita.
tapi mungkin malam akhir ini, kita harus lakukkan yang terbaik sementara esok hari sakitnya datang,
sebabnya aku dh berjanji pada mu esok aku tidak akan mencintaimu...
biarla hari ini aku mencintai kamu sepenuhnya....sepenuhnya...bagai selamanya~
hari ini kita berpura...kerana esok, pasti aku mencintai kamu lagi.

kamu hulur, saya terima

sungguh indah rasanya,
biar aku rasa apa rasanya,
biar ku sentuh apa sentuhnya,
teruja dengan dirimu...aku terpesona,

sungguh manis segalanya,
biar ku sentuh kulit mu,
biar ku amat segala fizik mu,
deru hati ku....melihat kamu,
geram jiwaku untuk kamu,

amatlah riang girang hatiku,
melihat kamu di sisiku,
kamu senyum buat ku senang,
kamu senang buat ku senyum...kamu memang magis untukku,
kamu sungguh cantik untuk mata dunia,
kamu hulur, saya terima...

halusnya kulitmu tika sentuh diriku,
romantisnya malam ku bila kamu senyum disebelahku...
kamu tahu...saya pun tahu....
tanpamu tak mungkin aku begini...
kerana kamu indah segalanya..
kerana kamu ku tahu indahnya hanya untuk ku.

death|mati|mampus

And if go,
while you're still here...
know that i live on,
vibrating to a different measure,
-behind a veil you cannot see through,
you will not see me,
so you must have faith,
i wait for the time when we can soar together again,
-both aware of each other,
until then,
live your life to its fullest,
and when you need me,
just whisper my name in your heart,
i will be there...

i will...i am........

zulhadry zolkafli

D.A.Z.Z.L.E

by your eye's telling me to stay, and so i stay,
by the glossy lips of yours asked to kissing u, and
so i did, then the moment..so memorable,
i keep telling myself, "dont get involved" ... and i, just cant help it.
seriously, being with you is something different. Something keeping my head down to earth. Whenever i try to heads up, i've been dazzling with your laugh.
i knew this is weird, very awkward...very very very...awkward. And so i asked "what about it?" simply replied "thats about it".

and thats about it, confusion...i dont think so. things so fascinate to me.
Im happy...are you happy?..smiled~.

for the whole day was like...wat the hell is going on here?
maybe because we both got issue. i do...do you?
the issue was...i hate wat am i doing rite now! everything are not me.
this is not me.

so i condemned myself. Well shit always happened, isnt it?.
i think so. But you...dazzle me, questioning myself......this is good.
im so sorry for everything...shit happen...miss you.

wow 2 years already!!!!!!

hahahahahahah fuck it!

terang,kasar,hitam & pilu

i am tried leaping the faith,
going,doing, the unexpected? loss,loose..
it's all been heard of, i neglected my own responsibility..but for the sake of my life,
i got to hold this much, holding this gruesome for my own thought,
less and less happening, falling from upper hold, lots of people dramatize the act,
faking the real of themselves, bragging and brags all over for their own captious the others vision,
me....
im just the audience of the fake stage of the world,
hoping for other to join me...learning, earning and extracting the juice.
sometimes people use the brute force, just for their own sake,
covering, hovering.....analyzing the outcome for their own profit.
lots of people do..same goes to you rite! so do i...some greediness...influenced by the satan.
"hey~ yes you! bastard commie!" some arguing the the outside look,
and also start to brag about their own capability but they actually aren't any of those.....
so damn hard to expressed....too damn blind to sense the texture of cruelness, its sadden the heart of me....sadden the heart of the world.
FUCK YOU COMMIE!